week b4 my birthday

Another tough week has passed. Dear dear has been hit by several blows this week with regards to her term tests, as well as to do with the way Fiona has been treating her in school. It has been a challenge for me having to try to cheer her up... especially when I've had troubles in school myself. But thank God that she decided to spend some time with Daddy to trash things out... and it seems like things are back to normal again. Thank God for how He can change our atttitudes and our hearts. I need to spend more time with God too because I've been facing some tough times. My students have been breaking my heart with their immaturity, and I've had to see to so many things in school. It has been hard to cope. I'm barely staying afloat. Thank God the New Year break is coming so at least I have a few days off to catch up.

My birthday falls on the first day of Chinese New Year this year. This gives it a bittersweet feeling. My birthday and our second anniversary... and we will not be able to spend the day together. I wish and I pray that God will really find a way soon to bring an end to all the misunderstanding and the hurts in my family, that we can put away all the bitterness and to move on for the benefit of all parties. I wish and I pray... and I hope.

Maybe it is time for me to write another letter to my mom.

Dear dear... when you read this, please know that I love you a lot a lot. I don't know if I can love anybody in this world more than I love you. I thank Daddy for molding and changing you, and I thank you that you are still pressing on with me even though you have suffered so many setbacks and unfavourable circumstances. I am proud of you. Yes sometimes we still hurt each other by the things we say and do... but I am utterly convinced that with Daddy in the centre of this relationship, our relationship and our marriage will be an overcoming one, against all odds.

You are precious to me. You are fast becoming my wife of noble character. You have humbled yourself and laid down your pride. You have crucified your old self, even though it may appear again from time to time. I look forward to the day I can call you my wife. I look forward to the day we have the keys to our own home. I look forward to the day our first child is born. I look forward to the day you prove to everybody that God is real and at work in your life, that they might look at you and say, our God is an amazing God.

I know that our God is the God of the impossible. I know that if we put Him first he will grant us the desires of our hearts. I love you dearly and deeply. You are a dream come true for me. I love you.