Another long Absense

I'm glad for this long weekend...

I've been able to clear a little bit of the back log and to get my life back on track again.
its been another tough week... i think i've been in a period of great stress in my life.
I had to think things through about how my life was progressing
it has been depressing at times.
I have had to deal with my underachievement on many fronts.

i know that God is purging me...
asking me to wake up
to face the facts and to face the truth about myself
I know that a deep cleansing needs to be done...

I need to wake up :)

Stressed but Determined

Another stressful week... even though had holidays... spent most of the holidays meeting parents. Learnt a lot through this whole process.... used to dread the idea of meeting parents but now learning to be comfortable and getting used to it...

school starting and so many things undone... really need to learn to be more efficient...

dear dear i love you
i thank Daddy for what he is doing in your life.
I know it is not easy for you to change and to be molded.
I am inspired to be a better leader of the relationship, to be a better spiritual example to you.

I need to get back on track.
I need to refocus... and to be on the right path again.

Drowning

help... i'm drowning... i need help...
no time, no discipline, really stressed

Another short update

Another update due... because I know that my dear dear likes it when I update my blog.
This weekend must have been the most ineffient weekend for me... I had the time but I lazed it all away...
i think i'm already wishing that the holidays were here... i really need them to sort out my life in a big way.
I really need to focus and to stop wasting time doing aimless surfing... i need to be spiritually stronger to give my dear dear more support. She needs it as she isn't going through an easy patch too. I also need to remember to pray for my mom that God will touch her and heal her from her emotional wounds. I pray that she wil learn to appreciate people for who they are instead of always placing expectations on people. I need to pray that my dear dear's healing will get manifested in the flesh. I know that I haven't been praying enough. I know that Daddy wants me to change... but it is almost like my whole life needs flushing out and I need to get the procrastination gremlins off my brain.

Dear dear I want to say that I love you. Sorry for hurting you sometimes and for being insensitive. Help me to appreciate all that you do better. I want to learn to love you more. Be strong in daddy ok? I know that somehow, he will take us through.

I love you to bits...

Another Update Due

Another update due... another difficult week and I really can't wait for the hols to begin.
I feel like I need a long rest... I need to recover and to regroup.
I've been through so much this year and its been only 2 months.
But time has flown. Flying faster all the time.

God I need help
I need to refocus
I need to get my life back in order
Help me.

I love you
but I know I hurt you by the way I spend my time
help me to spend my time more fruitfully...

Resigned

It seems as though I'm consigned to blogging once a week. It has been another long difficult week, where I've been struggling to cope… I always seem to be 2 days behind time, no matter what I do, no matter how much I try. I realize that I am just so inefficient. Maybe I'm not cut out for life here in Singapore. And yet, try I must, and keep up I must. I'm sorry for my dear dear as she always has to wait for me to blog. Sorry dear dear… I know I'm not very consistent… I'll try my best. I'm quite stressed… love you dear